may is a month of hope. it is warm. the sunshine is more meaningful. the air is heavy, filled with growing things. the sunlight now filters through leaves that seem to visibly grow by the day.
life feels less fuzzy. pull back, sharpen the focus. lets look at things with new eyes.
and so life is for us these days. that cursed what-is-next question clouds my brain so i struggle to zoom out.
the big picture is one of blessed living. zoom in, the details of the day make this reality that much more beautiful. not all fluff and nonsense. this is the real deal. this is what life and living is. the big picture is God is in his heaven, and all is right with the world. the details show that reality. they are not to be missed. but how hard this is, pulling back to remember what is what, yet living in the moment and being thankful. this can leave one dizzy. or, more likely for me, one gets caught in one perspective or the other... focusing too much on the day to day i take the little moments for granted. i lose my gratitude. i get crabby. caught up in the big picture i start becoming obsessed with what is next, impatient with the present. crabby.
perhaps i need the bigger big picture to be the prominent. that of God is in his heaven and all REALLY IS right with the world. then the day-to-day automatically reflects one back to the big picture.
its all about that balance. that perspective. claiming that peace.
